Random thoughts on a Wednesday

I realised the other day that once we're done painting the house, it'll be very similar to Frida Kahlo's house in Mexico City, just with white windows instead of green.

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I am still thinking about not-blogging and trying to find some sort of a balance in-between it all. This post is an attempt at that balance.

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It's been about 2 months that The Man has been away Monday to Friday and I am doing... not well. I am coping, but being something similar to a single parent in a town where I don't yet have a strong social network, is hard. I have a couple of friends, but it's not enough. The little "stolen" moments of adult conversations between kids and their daily needs leaves me thirsty for more, but I haven't got water.

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I almost cried at school yesterday when a replacement tutor (did I mention that the "jerk" tutor quit a few weeks ago? No? In the middle of a lecture? Just, basically, walked out? Yeah. We have a replacement tutor now) - when the replacement tutor said to me that he didn't have the assignments I had submitted. One of those assignments I didn't even have a copy of. It was all done in longhand and, normally, I scan my assignments before submitting them in case, you know, someone loses them.

But I hadn't scanned that one assignment and now the tutor was saying to me that he didn't have it - and I was sure that I had submitted it - and for about two minutes I stood in the hallway thinking, no. No, no, no, no, no. NO! I did NOT want to re-do assignments I had already done studiously and to high standard. But luckily, the tutor returned with a wide smile, "You were right, they were on my table!" and I breathed a sigh of relief.

But it did leave me feeling that, maybe, I do not want to have another year of this. I probably will go back to school and just DO IT, because I am capable of doing hard things, but... man. This year has not been awesome.

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Having a garden helps. Seeing birds in the back yard, helps. It has colour and vibrancy a human eye is actually developed for, rather than a computer screen in front of me.


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It's a year of hayfever. Again. I ended up at the medical centre asking for prescription drugs, and the nurse practitioner said to me that half the patients that day had come because of hayfever; some of them had never had hayfever before.

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On Monday a friend is going to land in our back yard with a campervan and four kids, so I expect it to be... mayhem, sort of, for the next few weeks that they are going to stay. The Man has stacked the timber sleepers to create a massive (albeit temporary) table in the back yard. It will probably fit us all. I think. Maybe. Yeah? Four adults, six kids. Maybe.


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Have asked a couple of quotes from window companies; sort of toying with the idea of putting in 'french doors' to a (future) deck this year. The numbers are... impressive.

A composite window/door made of aluminium AND timber would be $5,500. That's not even including instalment - it's the window/door alone. Makes for an interesting conversation about priorities!


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The trees have leafed-out. The moment we start getting strawberries, I am calling it a summer - probably another month from now.


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Universe, can we have O'Rourke / Harris 2020, please. Asking for a friend.

8 comments:

  1. Kes see "tutor" üldse on ja mis rolli ta mängib? Kas teil igas aines oma õppejõudu ei olegi?
    (Ma nagu oleks seda varem küsinud... Hmm...)

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    1. Siin nimetatakse õppejõude "tuutoriteks". Ma ei tea, kas see on inglise keele eripära või on asi selles, et ma õpin mitte ülikoolis, vaid instituudis - tehnikumis - nii et kõik "õpetajad" on "tuutorid".

      Meil on kaks põhi-tuutorit, kes teevad 90% ainetest - üks õpetab poolt, teine teist poolt. Mõned eriained (nt õigus ja programmeerimine) on teiste inimeste poolt, näiteks õigust annab üks kohalik jurist, aga muidu on peaaegu terve õppekava kahe inimese teha. Nad ongi, sisuliselt, ehitusmõõdistajate ja joonestajate tuutorid - nad ühelegi teisele õppekavale aineid ei anna.

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    2. Eesti keeles on tuutor vanem õpilane, kes juhendab nooremaid, olen isegi olnud. Sellepärast tunduski jube segane. Kui võtta tutor=õppejõud, on palju arusaadavam. Aitäh :)

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  2. "I am still thinking about not-blogging and trying to find some sort of a balance in-between it all. This post is an attempt at that balance."

    This is partly the reason I asked if you have considered writing fiction. Because regardless of how interesting and resourceful real life is, there is always people whose safety and privacy you have to protect (especially when there are kids involved). I really like reading your blog and it would be sad (even if you published fiction novel :P) if you quit blogging. Maybe I am commenting on this, because I am at the moment trying myself to figure out how to say what I want to say without harming people around me, but still conveying the meaning, content and emotion of specific topic.

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    1. "I am at the moment trying myself to figure out how to say what I want to say without harming people around me, but still conveying the meaning, content and emotion of specific topic."

      So how do you balance that? What's your way of doing it? :)

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    2. Haven't figured it out yet :(

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  3. miks need uksed ja aknad teil seal niiiiiii kallid on?

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    1. Sest... ma ei tea, Uus-Meremaa? Väike turg? Kallis elutase? Ja noh, see $5,500 aken on ka kõige kallim ka. Odavama alumiinium-akna saaks ca $2,500 eest.

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