A couple of weeks ago I bought a used camera on Trademe. It's kind of like New Zealand ebay.com - a website where people can trade with each other.
When the camera arrived by mail, it turned out to be faulty. The menus were constantly resetting - it was as if the camera was "thinking" that someone was pushing various buttons, when in fact no-one was touching it. When I e-mailed the seller she promptly apologised and promised to refund, but never did. I contacted her again, she promised to refund but never did. When I contacted the website letting them know of this incident, the seller got angry and posted a not-very-nice message - in a nutshell - on my profile. I felt bothered by the whole experience.
Eventually, I decided to back off. It just came to a point where I thought, I don't want to spend any more time or effort on this argument. My life was not bettered by it.
This morning as I was driving The Kid to school, I came to the same decision about my school and the mess I described in the previous article. I am going to back off.
What has happened is not fair. I am going to spend an extra year in school, costing both time and money. There is a good chance some of the study I did last year is not going to be accepted as part of the new curriculum, so I lost time and money last year, too. I may even be losing money now because until SIT confirms my enrolment I do not qualify for government support for childcare. (Whether that government department will back-date childcare support, I don't know - the lady in their office said today that it's the main office's decision to make, and she can't say for sure either way.)
But as I was driving The Kid to school this morning and crying at the wheel of my car over the unfairness of it (I think the technical term is bullsh*t), I thought, I do not want this kind of life. I don't want to be quiet in the kitchen whilst packing lunchboxes and saying to my son, "Please leave me alone, I'm not feeling good today." I don't want the ignorance and stupidity of the office managers in my school's department cause my life to look like that.
So I am going to back off. It may not be fair, but I am not going to keep crying at the wheel of the car in the morning because there are things more important than that in my life, and they are worth protecting instead.